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What if you weren’t just a victim of a narcissist, but rather you were a tool of delivering karmic payback?

Many people leave narcissistic abuse feeling defeated, ashamed, and asking themselves, “Why me?” But what if it is much bigger than that? What if you were sent not to be destroyed, but to reveal, to expose, to drain their illusions, and to awaken your greatest strength?

Your awful experience wasn’t meaningless; it was the spiritual reckoning for them and the beginning of your awakening.

Perhaps, you weren’t chosen by a narcissist randomly to be manipulated. You were put in their way by the universe, by God, as their karma payoff. That’s something that can set you free. You weren’t weak, you weren’t gullible, you weren’t unlucky. You were the universe’s response to their actions, decisions, and vibrations. You were their karma coming into their world human.

Reason 1: Revealing Their False Self

You are aware of how narcissists spend so much energy in keeping their tidily presented false face intact. They stage events, weave lies in an attempt to control, and use individuals to continue keeping up the act. What about you? You were put into their universe as the individual who would puncture everything. Your true self, your heart’s capacity to love without condition, and your emotional intelligence presented a stark contrast to their performance.

~ you pierced the emptiness under their performance, your presence intimidated their artificial self since genuine recognizes genuine, and pretense cannot be sustained with authenticity for long
~ you pierced the emptiness under their performance, your presence intimidated their artificial self since genuine recognizes genuine, and pretense cannot be sustained with authenticity for long
~ their efforts to diminish your light through belittling and devaluing you pushed you toward finding self-endorsement yourself. Whenever they tried to get you to feel that you were too much, too sensitive, or too demanding, you were being pushed in the direction of realizing your true value
~ the fact that the narcissist did not value your true self made it the same thing that taught you to value it for yourself… their withholding of your emotional needs conditioned you to become your emotional caretaker, their inability to see your worth forced you to find it for yourself. As much as you were their karma, revealing their false self, so were they your catalyst for revealing your true self. It was a spiritual lesson

Reason 2: Energy Independence and Emotional Vampires

Narcissists are emotional vampires who suck the life out of people to fill up their empty core. They flit from relationship to relationship, leaving devastation in their wake, grabbing what they want and discarding the rest. But God or the universe has a way of evening up these scales. You were that balance. You came into their lives as the one who would suck them dry, not because of manipulations or cruelty, but because you were yourself.

~ your hunger for real connection, emotional intimacy, and true love made demands on them that they were not able to fulfill
~ your expectations of how you were to be treated became their karma
~ while they wanted to suck you dry, you drained them involuntarily of something much bigger: their capacity to sustain illusions
~ your persistent truthfulness caused them to have to work increasingly harder at sustaining their false self
~ your emotional requirements were the karmic debt payments that they could never quite pay
~ that energy sucking of theirs caused you some pain, and that wasn’t nothing. That was some kind of training. You learned how to guard your energy, identify the energy vampires right away, and never again provide more than they give

Reason 3: Eliciting Insecurities and Revealing Strengths

A narcissist’s arrogant façade covers up an inner core of shame, inferiority, and self-loathing so deep that they have constructed their whole personality to prevent themselves from having to face it. Your true worthiness, although you did not realize it at the time consciously sabotaged by their artificially constructed superiority.

~ your natural abilities, potential for growth, and capacity for real relationships – all of these reminded them of everything they were afraid they were lacking
~ you were a living reminder that they were not unique, exceptional, or indispensable
~ your presence reminded them of all they were not and could never be
~ this ongoing triggering was their karma for putting all those fears onto others in their lifetimes …while you were surely goading their insecurities, they were also at no moment not sharing with you their best: strengths you hadn’t realized you possessed. Their efforts to destroy you told you the extent to which you were strong
~ their efforts to control uncovered inner strength that could not be controlled
~ their belittling and criticism moved you toward the establishment of an unconquerable sense of self, which external devices could not constrain

Reason 4: Keeping Them Apart and Training Discernment

Narcissists rely on having several lines of supply available to them, friends, relatives, co-workers, and love interests who feed their hunger for validation and control. You’re aware of that. But you were brought into their life as the one who would finally shut them off from these attachments. Your presence began to make others perceive their own selves. Others who had once been manipulated by their charm began to feel the manipulation, deception, and emotional abuse through your experience

~ their deceptions taught you to listen to your gut if something did not feel right.
~ their betrayals helped you differentiate between true loyalty and fake support
~ although you were their karma, revealing their manipulative nature, their presence was teaching you how not to be manipulated any longer

Reason 5: Spiritual Reckoning and Awakening

The deepest reason you were the narcissist’s karma is that you were their spiritual reckoning, the location where all their decisions, activity, and energy returned to them in the shape of an experience that they couldn’t sidestep, manipulate, or manage. You carried with you the collective pain of all they had ever harmed, not consciously, of course, but energetically.

~ your physical body vibrating to their manipulation was your spiritual response to accepting the accumulated hurts they had inflicted on others
~ when they were hurting you, they were feeling through you every painful instant they’d ever inflicted
~ your angry outbursts at what they were doing were not weakness; they were God’s method, the universe’s method, of making them see in full the seriousness of what they’d done
~ each tear you cried was a tear some other individual had cried because of them
~ each second of bewilderment you felt was bewilderment they had actively sown in other folks’ minds …you were their karma mirror, holding up to them all the emotional cost of their actions
~ the magnitude of your suffering was proportional to the magnitude of suffering they had inflicted in their lifetime
~ you were not just feeling your suffering; you were carrying the cumulative suffering of all their victims, that is why the suffering was so exaggerated and out of proportion. You were carrying more than your load; you were also carrying theirs
~ while they were giving you your spiritual reckoning, they were also stimulating your spiritual awakening
~ they were so toxic, so anti-love, that they made you doubt all that you thought you knew about relationships, human nature, and what is real

their manipulation had you grow spiritually discerning
their deception had you discover your truth
the way the narcissist treated you broke your previous assumptions about love, trust, and the kindness of humans
this breaking had to be done so that you could develop spiritually
you were instructed to trust your instincts through their painful betrayal
you learned inner strength that you never knew you had
through their emotional abuse
you found your inner light through their efforts to extinguish it

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I almost deleted this, when I got to reason four… it didn’t seem to apply. But then I got to thinking…I have been completely cut off from his friends and family. I’m still friends with his mom on Facebook, but I blocked one of his nieces. He tells me to call his mom, I tell him to give me her number (I lost it when I got my new phone), but he doesn’t give me her number. But that doesn’t really matter – I believe she has my number. She could call me if she wanted to, or get my number from him. It works both ways right? Plus, I doubt she really wants to hear what I have to say…

He is now living on the eastern shore, with his son and his son’s mother – in an Air BNB (bed and breakfast), and has had to get a part time job…”he has no choice”, he says. None of his friends or family that I know of have “woken up” to who or what he is. He’s still able to play his game…maybe.

The thing is…he lost a really good thing when he treated me the way he did and refused to acknowledge that there was a problem.

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